Still Thankful

Hey you guys, I know today is the day when everyone is cooking and gathering for Thanksgiving Day and so I was just popping in to wish you all a very happily, blessed holiday.

Ok, I decided to do a little something in the kitchen myself. Aside from it just being me and my numbing fingers, my uncle will enjoy the spread. I used to be so good in the kitchen and liked it. These days not so much.

So, I am thankful to just have the opportunity to wish you all a happy turkey day. I am thankful to at least be able to still feed myself and prepare a light meal despite the cruelty of nerve damage. Although I would have loved to surprise my daughter out in California, my no money having ass will be staying home. Still, I am thankful. Thank you for Heavenly Father for your mercy. I am still here and I’m thankful.

Talk with you guys soon. God willing!

As always thank you for stopping by and if you haven’t already purchased a copy of my book The Triumph In Me, email me at to request a signed copy.

Smiles and blessings.


Kreative On Purpose


Oh Happy Day

IMG_0573Happy Sunday! Thankful for another day. I was sitting here watching my morning church services and that message from Dr. Charles Stanley was on point and just what I needed. I had a revelation. No kidding.

I was baptized back in the later 90’s and I am just now having the full understanding that my life has been made of all the things destined for me. I understand that some of the things that has placed me in uncomfortable circumstances, I played part in due to my choices. Others were due to the choices God made for me that were planned by Him for a reason. Purpose. My heart has been strengthened. It has been broken and repaired so many times. It continues to wear scars. I can express this openly because I am sure of it. Believe me or not that I speak from my heart; the very heart that God uniquely placed his spirit in. I’m not saying that I am anything special than you but I am indeed special, unique and touched by God.


It is amazing; this process. I thought my life was dark and dull all this time, only to realize that it was not. Am I supposed to think that someone out in the world would ever need, use or want anything my heart may speak? I guess that depends on what it is that I’m saying. Fair enough. I want you to know I pray for peaceful hearts and wellness for us all.

You, if you’re reading this are indeed special to me. If you know your blessed, comment Amen. If you are searching for some new direction in life, comment Amen and hit me up, let’s talk about that. If neither applies, it’s okay to say hello anyways, rite?

Did I mention, I have been working on my second book? Yes! I said second. Now that is nothing less than a miracle.

I am a person just like you, living in a world that confuses the hell out of us. We can support, encourage and uplift one another and that should be okay.

I appreciate you reading about how my life has been transformed. I promised to keep you in the loop until I have life no more and I plan to keep it.

Until next time. Thanks for visiting and don’t forget to LIKE, SHARE or COMMENT.

Smiles and Blessings.

Keeping the Faith

Hey guys! Here we are another day among the living. Despite all the challenges we may be facing today, it is still a day. A day to make a difference or to not. I am thankful for this day that allows me to connect with you. So, thank you for visiting. As most of you already know, I am chronically ill. Multiple health conditions that I have decided to LIVE with instead of dying from. I posted the pic below on Instagram. I made it this morning.

Keep your FAITH in He and it shall be. Hmm…

Well just imagine the day you could be living the life you always dreamed of. What would you be doing? Where would you be? Just think about that for a few seconds. Ok now this is gonna sound crazy, but bear with me. Through careful meditation, prayer and belief; I am living my dream. A dream I never would have thought existed. I am a mother who gets to write and use the power within my conversation to inspire individuals who may need it. That individual who knows what it is like living in a state of disbelief. A loss of hope. Newly diagnosed with a chronic illness. Just lost your job, the lifeline of your survival. Things that occur and totally knock the shit out of us. Yea, I’ve been there. My life sucked for the most of it until I changed my thought of it. I always thought my life sucked. I truly believed it. And so, it did. Today’s life doesn’t suck. I have learned to change my mindset. I mean things are so weird for me now. I am aware of things others don’t think two shits about. And in a way, we all have this ability. It was given to you by the Creator of all. The God who has helped me change my life. For real. I am here on a blog writing about my personal life journey to share with others who may need to be reminded of how life isn’t so bad. Let me be clear, I am not saying that I don’t experience sucky challenges. My every day is still a struggle; a struggle with lots of things like taking a shower. Like walking. Nah, my life doesn’t suck, no way Jose! Some of the events in my life may suck. My life is grand. I love my life. I bet yours is too. It takes getting to know yourself and a willingness to work towards seeing it as such. Completely your choice.

And I close this by adding, I’m not sure if I am already transitioning to the spiritual side and we all know what that means. Or, it could not. Keep stopping by, we shall see.

Thanks again and be sure to LIKE if you do, SHARE to your other social media, Comment if you want. I appreciate it all.

Smiles and Blessings to YOU!

Kashinda T. Marche

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Taking my ME back!

Ever wonder how we end up in these draining situations?

I sometimes ask myself, how did I end up in this situation that seems to drain the energy straight out of me. A situation that steals my hope, my will, my me. I have tried so hard in these situation types to take my hope back, my will, my me and until the Lord restored me I had other known behavior other than to give up, sit and sulk, living with no life. I blamed the devil and gave in. That wasn’t the me that I was created to be . The me I have been prepared to be. The me that wants to help others recognize their me. That person who can take back their hope, their will, their them. 😊

I have been strengthened mentally, physically and spiritually. Sharing my journey is my purpose. It is what allows me to experience hope, will and living a life. A life meant for me. The me I was created to be.

Thanks again for stopping by. Feel free to LIKE, SHARE and COMMENT, I’d love to hear from you.

Smiles and blessings to you all.

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The Me I Didn’t Know

Hey guys here is a piece I feel would allow a better understanding of what it is I write about her on my blog. The very thing of my purpose. Life. I write about life. My life and lately I have been led to the sharing of the life lessons I have learned along the way, learning along the way and that of others before me and the lessons they have publicly shared.

With a respect for others and their beliefs, I understand that many won’t be in agreement. That’s what makes it so awesome, it’s ok.

Life lessons were intended to be the teachings of you. They also serve as beneficial particles of direction for others. Some lessons learned from others can be quite successful in the life of others and some may not. If we chose to follow we must understand the it comes down to choice. You can choose to use life lessons from others to implement into your own blueprint or you don’t have to. I chose to learn from others ways. My ancestors lived through the worst of times than now. As bad as it is. They lived through the first of times of what we know as modern civilization. The not so civil of times partially because it was the first of. Isn’t it safe to say that most first timers fail or suck and if you get to nail anything the first time around you are truly gifted because most of us don’t. I know I didn’t and so maybe they didn’t either. They being the ones who lived in this same world that I do today. Doing the same old thing making their difference in different ways. Commonality? We are all living, rite? We all look for love, we all want to eat, sleep and shit. We all enjoy the idea of making money.

My point here is I am choosing what way I choose to make my difference in a world not giving to me but rather in a world I am being given to. A world I am to be giving. This is the me God intended me to be. The me I didn’t know. I am a Storyteller.

A me who knows I’m dying. A me who knows this may or may not be a wise choice but also a me who knows the Glory of my God and He who gives me the strength is He whom I trust. Here I will share parts of my life with you until there is no more life to share.


The Prayer that introduces The Me I Didn’t Know

By the age fourteen, I didn’t know I had already began the purge of the true me. All I knew was that I hated my household, had the self-esteem of a scorned woman and that I had already developed the image of my life as it were to be. I didn’t know how I viewed the world and all things within including myself would depict my growth and in what ways. This eternal process is my life.

What provoked this share was the studying of my culture and the exhaustingly decline in my health. I had been worn so thin by the age forty, there was no choice but to surrender to God. He who has created the everything we were created to consider and He who has created all beings that are to be considered, I turn to you for I have no other place to go.

Heavenly Father, I thank you for the life You given me. I appreciate al the disguised blessings I was too ignorant to recognize. I am infinitely grateful for the time spent and the gift of my daughter. I enjoyed motherhood; so thank you for that. I come to you Dear Lord because as you already know, the time has come and I have arrived at the place. The place in my life where I need your help Dear Lord and I haven’t found anyone capable of the task. Not even I.

I now understand that my life and all its struggles challenges and obstacles, all  of its disappointments, devastations and un-resulting determinations. I now understand how blessed I was to have been a part of the lives of others, the life of a child carefully handled from the heart and that of the life I was able to witness with my own sight as witness. I thank you Father.

I am seeking the peace that’s missing in my life still holding me captive and that is the negative ways of my thinking. My perception is under attack and I have done all I could to oppose it and Father I have failed. I continue to foster thoughts of disgrace, fear and judgement. Guilt. Guilt of not allowing the true self of me to emerge. The me you created me to be in full bloom and blossom. To you Heavenly Father, I am seeking your will. In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen

This is a  me who has lived in pain for most of my life.  Living a life searching for pain relief.

What do I need to do to feel like this? The this I thought was that. The that I learned was this.

Making a choice in life is one of the most powerful tools given to us. Unfortunately, I was groomed to not recognize it. So, the choices I made in life were crafted by the mock design of the world around me, the people, my family, my household. Circumstances. All these things delivered to me in plain sight thru the surrendering of my life back to the one who created it and prayer for his help is who I am now. This is the me I didn’t know.

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Smiles and blessings!

Sick AND Tired

Are you sick AND tired of being sick of being tired? I know damn well I am!

Hey guys! It is my greatest hope that as you are journeying this thing called life, you are discovering just how you fit in and the role you play in it.

Lately I have been all about sharing the lessons I have been learning in MY life. Why? I suppose it is to help others.


In what way? Well, that I’m not too sure of yet.

Is it about me at all?

Let’s just say there’s a little bit of self in all of us; actually there should be plenty of self in all of us.

My lesson learned is that it IS about me; however, not ALL about me. It teaches me that my actions are about managing myself; however, my actions may also affect others. How so? In many ways, how I speak with others or what I say and when I say it all matters.

This lesson in life teaches me and possibly others all about personal growth. I talk a lot about my daughter because she has been and continues to be a big part of my life. She got caught up in grown folks issues during her young stages, which was not cool, but we all learned some things. As a young adult, she now understands that being a big part of her mommy’s life doesn’t mean it’s all about her. I can only pray that my instabilities raising her doesn’t pose such negative effects causing her personal growth to be hindered.


Self-destruction is something that I battled for years. Once I finally understood what that actually meant, I was able to steer away from behaviors that worked against my personal improvement progress. Along my journey, it became clearer to me that I had a purpose; a purpose of existence. I hope to continue to learn and grow and learning from others is a necessary step in the process.. We can all learn from the complexities of this constantly changing society we live in. Why not talk about some shit, real shit, shit that matters to us. It should be okay for our voices to be heard.

I wonder sometimes about my role in my own life. These days I am a sick person. Seriously, I am a sick with a few different health challenges and I am tired. I am tired of being sick and sick of being tired but I keep going. God has truly been good to me, I do not deny that. It is a fact that although there are so many things working against me, there are many blessings attached. My voice has been growing. I have been growing at a pace that frightens me. I am learning so many things about myself and others.

May I share this with you? Recently, I came across a Facebook post that offers to help me with discovering my God given gifts (we all have at least one) and how to monetize them. Now, I am the first to express how money is something I lack in my life. It would be nice if that weren’t so but it is. I have seen so many posts similar to that one it has me wondering what it would be like if at this stage in my life if I were to learn to monetize my gift of creativity or how to monetize my gift of turning troubles into triumphs. I am curious to see where that goes. Unfortunately, my wants have taken a back seat to the many of things I am in need of as a person with disabilities.

Plainly put, I can talk, encourage and uplift. I could be wrong but isn’t that something I should be doing from the goodness of my heart. Speaking into people is something I have been good at for most of my life. It is because of all the shit I come across on social media that had me believing I may could make money by doing so. Not sure if I’m feeling that.

This world we live in has conditioned most of us regular folk that MONEY is the end all be all. What about that saying, Money is the root of all evil? Where did that come from? Part of me agrees with it and another part of me is confused by it. Am I the only one?

Anyhow, I say all of that to say this, according to my personal relationship with God, I am here to service him and by doing so I will be blessed with abundance. Could be an abundance of love; maybe support or joy. It is in this moment I think I have. Have you ever thought about your need for money and how do you gain financial freedom?

Here’s what I have had enough of: people claiming to show you simple steps to living out your dream, people making it seem like all is possible if you just follow their formula, people feeding us the bullshit that will lead us to money. Not to mention, it usually costs a fee just to access the info.

I am sick AND I’m tired of people’s bullshit when it comes to playing on others. I get it and at the same time I don’t. I get that it is possible because through Christ all things are. What I don’t get is how easy they make it seem. Let me tell y’all something you may already know; ain’t nothing easy about it. In fact, it is my own perspective to which I speak from and let me repeat, there ain’t nothing easy about it. Rather it be following in the path of Christ or chasing that dream, it takes discipline, dedication and lots of hard work. I’m trying and whew, it’s getting pretty tough.

All the visions, ideas and realizations from my God; what does it all mean? I don’t know. Am I giving up on my dream to help others who may need me? NOPE. I’m boldly stating that it ain’t nothing easy about any of it so don’t fall for it. The shit can really discourage you before he steps in to encourage you. The shit can weaken you before he steps in to strengthen you. All your efforts may go unnoticed before he reveals the bigger picture to you.

Nah, I won’t give up. I’m just admitting that I am sick AND tired of being sick of being tired. 

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Smiles & blessings to you all!


Continued from The Triumph Within Tharisse