Have you ever gotten so down that you just had to have a talk with yourself?
I speak to God all the time but this was a talk I had with myself. To put things back into perspective. To remind myself of who I am.
I know its been some time since we’ve had a one on one chat with one another and it seems like we are way overdue. First of all I want you to know how extremely proud I am of you. I can see you’re wearing thin. I can see the imminence of discouragement making its way to your face. Even myself and many others fight hard to remain positive in what seems to be impossible situations to get through. But I know that you know just how awesome God is at times like that.
Self, you must hold on to the very faith that brought you through the most challenging times in our life. Trust me I was there with you, remember?
Now being as though you have stepped out on that faith and began this new venture of writing, you are feeling tested yet again. Many are telling you that God had placed this gift within you since the beginning of your existence; that he took us through serious stuff just to prove to you now that this is your calling. Many are saying that you should be sharing our experiences with others and showing those who may need to hear that they too can beat the odds they feel are against them.
Self, keep in mind and stand strong in believing that you and I have conquered issues that most wouldn’t even understand. You are a warrior and don’t you ever doubt nor forget it.
Self, take a moment to think about the life you have lived and it will show you the life you are now living and the life’s possibilities of your future. You have raised an amazing daughter with next to little support. You have worked many different jobs on all levels to maintain an independent lifestyle. You have extended help to others in need. You have endured life threatening health conditions and you are still pushing beyond measure. I must say I am moved by your drive, your determination. God has not led you wrong thus far; although sometimes we feel differently.
You have now decided to step out as a writer. Never considering yourself a writer in the past; you somehow was able to create one heck of a story that contains so many life lessons many can relate to. You chose to speak on subject matter that takes enormous courage to discuss. You will reach many who may need a little uplifting in their life. I know you feel the process has exhausted you both physically and mentally but the same one who has made the entire accomplishment possible will be the same one who will strengthen you through it. Blessings have and will continue to fall upon your life. I know first hand self that your heart is in the right place. Your needs will be met. You will get that motorized wheelchair you so desperately need. You will get that bath chair lift you daydream about. A nice warm bubble bath sure does sound good to me too. You will get to go on a luxury vacation one of these days. Keep praying. Keep promoting your anointed work. Keep your head up in a positive manner.
I love you self! I admire you self! I am so proud to be a part of you!
I hope this little chat has done you some good. I feel better and am glad you chose to express your feelings with me. I am you! You are me! We are self!