Darkness

If you haven’t already been introduced to Tharisse ,get acquainted with her by clicking the link:  amazon.com/Triumph-Within-Tharisse-Kashinda-Marche-ebook/dp/B01GDSIJRS/

Coming Soon!! as Tharisse continues her truth.
Here I share with you one of her diary entries to be included in the next phase of her journey.

My Darkest Hours

Thinking back on some of the darkest hours in my life brings me to a place buried so deep. It is amazing how far I’ve come but will never be completely rid of these memories.

Sitting in the house sipping on some E & J VSOP and listening to my old school club music, Caught Up In A One Night Love Affair by Inner Life comes on and reminds me of being disappointed yet again by life…All it took was the thought of how much I have already endured and the unknown of what may still lie ahead for me that placed me in the darkness. I had some over the counter pain relievers and felt the need to try another escape, another cowardly run for it. I mixed the pills with the booz, stretched out on the bed and waited. Young Destiny was in school during this time and I was home. A medical leave from my job left me to my negative thoughts. In a relationship but still felt so alone. The dark found me again in a moment of weakness. I figured by the time Destiny was due to come home, my body would have already been picked up by the coroner. What was I thinking? How could I do that to my daughter, just leave her like that? Well during those dark times, I felt like Destiny would either be better off without me or I would just take her with me. Thinking about it now I’m like “What the fuck!” I was in pretty bad shape during my darkest moments but at the end of the day, somehow, someway there was always a saving grace with me along the way and so here I am.

To share these experiences can hopefully find a soul out there who needs to know that they are not the only one who becomes victim to dark moments and that they too can survive them even though it may not seem so.

Little Sister

 

 

Little Sister

Hey little sister, lean on me for I am your keeper
Speak to me for I am here to listen to your every word

How could I not know you had lost your way
How could I not know your pain was as deep as my own
I loved you from the start yet you feel unloved

Your smile so beautiful so illuminating
How could I not know your world was so dark

Allow me to wrap my arms around you little sister
To know I am here for you

I pray His mercy will be placed upon you
I pray you find your way back to us
I pray you receive the strength needed to fight your demon

Hey little sister, lean on me for I am your keeper

The Truth Continues

Hello all and welcome back…

For those of you who are joining for the 1st time, Welcome!

I’ve decided to go in another direction moving forward. Tharisse is my inner voice so I will continue to speak through her, be sure to pick up your copy of The Triumph Within Tharisse which is now available on AMAZON FOR $2.99

 

I do hope you enjoy the short story!   This is my truth as it continues…

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I was diagnosed at the age of 19 years old…I just turned 40 years old…God is Awesome! It took me all this time to find the courage to share my story. I struggled a lot with it but I hope to help anyone carrying the weight of it or living in hiding as I did.

I have decided to own my life with the demon and so here is a re-introduction:

My name is Tharisse and I am HIV+.  It has been 20 years and yes it has been extremely difficult carrying the weight of it on my shoulders but my demon has taught me tons of valuable lessons in life and continues to do so.  
Thank you for reading and allowing me to share my story with you.  I hope you will continue on the journey of Tharisse’s Truth as more of my story is still to come…   Now head on over to Amazon for the title:  The Triumph Within Tharisse to get a full understanding of the experiences leading up the diagnosis.

 

ALL PROCEEDS WILL GO TOWARD THE PURCHASE OF A POWERED WHEELCHAIR THAT WILL ALLOW ME INDEPENDENT FREEDOM.

 

THANKS AGAIN AND BLESSINGS TO ALL!

Short Story

The Triumph In Me

by Kashinda T. Marche

AVAILABLE  SOON ON AMAZON FOR KINDLE AND ALSO FOR PRINTED COPIES!!!!

 

YOUR SUPPORT IS GREATLY APPRECIATED AS ALL PROCEEDS WILL BE USED TO PURCHASE A POWERED WHEELCHAIR.  THIS CHAIR WILL ALLOW ME THE FREEDOM OF EXPLORING THE OUTDOORS INDEPENDENTLY.

 

I THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH AND HOPE THAT YOU WILL CONTINUE TO FOLLOW MY BLOG AS I CONTINUE TO SHARE MY STORY WITH YOU.

 

BLESSINGS TO ALL!

Pardon Me…

 

I apologize in advance for my rant!!!    Everywhere I look I see some shit like this haunting at me like a freaky ghost…Yes I am in a state of discouragement at the current moment…I know that my beliefs are as real as I allow them to be but somehow I still keep getting lost…I am so upset with myself for allowing this negative energy to take over me.  I am praying and praying and praying…I try to keep as productive I can…but I’m fed up it seems as if nothing is happening so how much can you do when you are disabled, not able to work, no friends, no social activities, no intimacy, can barely walk (literally) I use a walker for short distances and a powerchair for long distances due to peripheral neuropathy which hurts like crazy and whats even worst I can no longer tolerate most of the foods I used to enjoy…AND MANY MORE

Anyhow yea I know I have lots of issues to deal with and now you know too 🙂  and I swear I am trying my best to maintain a positive outlook on it all, (partial reason for writing/sharing my story) It’s just sooooo hard trying to keep it all together but um yea ok…I will push through and yes continue to pray…I even decided to quit smoking ciggerettes which is making me more crazy out my ass (its only been a day) I am drinking green tea now as a form of cleanser, like really I am trying…This story I’m writing has me damn near psychotic I am so nervous about releasing it but I hope it is received well and someone will get something from it…

Thanks for stopping by!!!

It’s Official

 

Yayy!!!  I have finally narrowed down my 1st  book’s synopsis.  I’ve said it before and will continue to emphasize this point of how the courage and strength that I have unexpectedly found has led me to the sharing of my story thru this fictional character Tharisse.  She and I are very similar and though this story has been inspired by actual events throughout my life, it is my creativity that is allowing Tharisse to use her own voice and she hopes to inspire others.  If something in your soul’s pit is telling you to share your experiences as there could be another person out here who needs it, we hope you too find the courage needed to take such a huge risk of exposing your truth.

I will keep you all posted as to when and where my book will launch its Part I and would be honored to have you join me on my escapade.  It is not just a journey for me but a life discovery.

Please feel free to comment your thoughts as any and all feedback are welcomed…Thank you for visiting!

 

Continued from The Triumph Within Tharisse