Are you sick AND tired of being sick of being tired? I know damn well I am!
Hey guys! It is my greatest hope that as you are journeying this thing called life, you are discovering just how you fit in and the role you play in it.
Lately I have been all about sharing the lessons I have been learning in MY life. Why? I suppose it is to help others.
In what way? Well, that I’m not too sure of yet.
Is it about me at all?
Let’s just say there’s a little bit of self in all of us; actually there should be plenty of self in all of us.
My lesson learned is that it IS about me; however, not ALL about me. It teaches me that my actions are about managing myself; however, my actions may also affect others. How so? In many ways, how I speak with others or what I say and when I say it all matters.
This lesson in life teaches me and possibly others all about personal growth. I talk a lot about my daughter because she has been and continues to be a big part of my life. She got caught up in grown folks issues during her young stages, which was not cool, but we all learned some things. As a young adult, she now understands that being a big part of her mommy’s life doesn’t mean it’s all about her. I can only pray that my instabilities raising her doesn’t pose such negative effects causing her personal growth to be hindered.
Self-destruction is something that I battled for years. Once I finally understood what that actually meant, I was able to steer away from behaviors that worked against my personal improvement progress. Along my journey, it became clearer to me that I had a purpose; a purpose of existence. I hope to continue to learn and grow and learning from others is a necessary step in the process.. We can all learn from the complexities of this constantly changing society we live in. Why not talk about some shit, real shit, shit that matters to us. It should be okay for our voices to be heard.
I wonder sometimes about my role in my own life. These days I am a sick person. Seriously, I am a sick with a few different health challenges and I am tired. I am tired of being sick and sick of being tired but I keep going. God has truly been good to me, I do not deny that. It is a fact that although there are so many things working against me, there are many blessings attached. My voice has been growing. I have been growing at a pace that frightens me. I am learning so many things about myself and others.
May I share this with you? Recently, I came across a Facebook post that offers to help me with discovering my God given gifts (we all have at least one) and how to monetize them. Now, I am the first to express how money is something I lack in my life. It would be nice if that weren’t so but it is. I have seen so many posts similar to that one it has me wondering what it would be like if at this stage in my life if I were to learn to monetize my gift of creativity or how to monetize my gift of turning troubles into triumphs. I am curious to see where that goes. Unfortunately, my wants have taken a back seat to the many of things I am in need of as a person with disabilities.
Plainly put, I can talk, encourage and uplift. I could be wrong but isn’t that something I should be doing from the goodness of my heart. Speaking into people is something I have been good at for most of my life. It is because of all the shit I come across on social media that had me believing I may could make money by doing so. Not sure if I’m feeling that.
This world we live in has conditioned most of us regular folk that MONEY is the end all be all. What about that saying, Money is the root of all evil? Where did that come from? Part of me agrees with it and another part of me is confused by it. Am I the only one?
Anyhow, I say all of that to say this, according to my personal relationship with God, I am here to service him and by doing so I will be blessed with abundance. Could be an abundance of love; maybe support or joy. It is in this moment I think I have. Have you ever thought about your need for money and how do you gain financial freedom?
Here’s what I have had enough of: people claiming to show you simple steps to living out your dream, people making it seem like all is possible if you just follow their formula, people feeding us the bullshit that will lead us to money. Not to mention, it usually costs a fee just to access the info.
I am sick AND I’m tired of people’s bullshit when it comes to playing on others. I get it and at the same time I don’t. I get that it is possible because through Christ all things are. What I don’t get is how easy they make it seem. Let me tell y’all something you may already know; ain’t nothing easy about it. In fact, it is my own perspective to which I speak from and let me repeat, there ain’t nothing easy about it. Rather it be following in the path of Christ or chasing that dream, it takes discipline, dedication and lots of hard work. I’m trying and whew, it’s getting pretty tough.
All the visions, ideas and realizations from my God; what does it all mean? I don’t know. Am I giving up on my dream to help others who may need me? NOPE. I’m boldly stating that it ain’t nothing easy about any of it so don’t fall for it. The shit can really discourage you before he steps in to encourage you. The shit can weaken you before he steps in to strengthen you. All your efforts may go unnoticed before he reveals the bigger picture to you.
Nah, I won’t give up. I’m just admitting that I am sick AND tired of being sick of being tired.
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Smiles & blessings to you all!