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There are millions of people across the world who suffer from anxiety and depression. Whether it’s a constant issue or pops up at certain times in life, it can be difficult to dig yourself out of the hole. Even if you’re aware of it, dealing with anxiety and depression isn’t easy. Thankfully, there are some […]

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Another Day Still Fighting

Hey guys!  Today is another one of those days on the battlefield, the battlefield of LIFE.

It’s no secret that I have decided to share the intimate details of my journey. I have admitted to struggling with the stability of my mental health as well as the decline in my physical abilities due to Peripheral Neuropathy otherwise known as nerve damage.

As I have been trying to take positive approaches towards bettering my life and gaining a confidence in the changes taking place, it has been extremely difficult fighting against the evils of giving up. I wish there were an easy way to transform oneself but the reality is there isn’t. My reality may be familiar or similar to many others and I try to connect with people to communicate helpful conversation. A conversation of hope but it doesn’t seem to be working.

So I shall continue to write. I will write what my heart chooses to say.

Tonight I am hurting. I am frustrated by the fact that my neuropathy is progressing faster than my mental can process it. I try to live by my message of optimism and never to give up but I am human. I am weakening. I ask God for the strength and endurance to get through my storms. I will write in hopes of relief. My words may or may not make much sense at times. The shitty thing about it all is that life at times doesn’t make much sense. Is there anyone out there who feel the same? Is there anyone out there who falls into the pit of darkness? I find myself begging for just a flicker of light in my darkness. I know it gets better but I just wish my better moments were more consistent. Is it okay to just sit in sorrow sometimes? The fight gets exhausting. People tell me all the time to keep fighting but sometimes I just rather not. I guess this is normal. What does that even mean? Normal? There is nothing normal about hating yourself one minute and trying to not the next. Oh yea, could that be the BiPolar in me? Maybe.

My next post will most likely be different than this one. Or not!

If you feel like saying something, please do. You MATTER!

 

My Process continues

 

FINAL COVER

Hey guys,  I am back to fill you in on the continued process of my self-published journey.

The previous post left off at my completion of my 1st draft of THE TRIUMPH IN ME.

Now from this point everyone’s journey is different of course, so for me I let my 1st draft marinate for a minute and I just read it over and over and each time I read it I found myself creating more and more scenes. It actually increased from 10,000 words to 26,000 words. I had a complete story that I was satisfied with.

Now what? Is it ready to publish? Will anybody want to buy it? Is it interesting enough to satisfy an avid reader’s appetite? How in the hell am I supposed to know?

Well that’s what an editor is for and why you have what is called beta-readers. They can provide you with the feedback needed to shape your baby. Then you have a final manuscript ready to format for either E-Book or Paperback or both. I decided to format both. I’ve learned that there are those who prefer to read on their mobile devices and then you have those who prefer the traditional way; holding that physical book in their hands and feeling that flipping of the pages against their fingertips.

My journey was created long before I began writing. It was what my life has been that led me to the pen. Most of what I’ve learned is that money plays a big part in the self-publishing process; but it doesn’t necessarily have to. Most can be accomplished with an extra dash of creativity and lots of prayer. Sometimes a pinch of begging and pleading can help as well. I had no budget; $0 budget.

I was able to find an editor through Facebook groups I had joined. She was affordable and had a great reputation as far I could tell. I prayed on it (as mentioned in a previous post) and then I was hit with an idea that was so far from my mind.

A friend of mine asked me to start a publishing service with her and together we published my 1st book. Her business management education and background, her passion for helping others succeed, and her drive to become monetarily stable was all I needed to know to convince me to join forces. She advanced the start-up funds to get my book fully edited and the cover designed and I did the book formatting and layout.

We both marketed and promoted on our social media platforms, researched all aspects of the business and here I am proud to say that we have a damn good (maybe not perfect) but really good looking book that contains a powerful story within its pages.

Of course we are still learning as we all are or should be but I introduce to you:     book-logo

Here are the links to where you can sign up for updates, read our bios and of course purchase a copy straight from our WEBSITE which I will personally autograph and ship to you.

Follow us on TWITTER and INSTAGRAM and get exclusive updates on what’s happening with us. We will be taking submissions very soon.

Hope you enjoyed this post. I will be back with more!

Thank you for visiting and as always feel free to leave a comment!

 

My Process: As promised

 

FINAL COVER

 

So as promised, this Self Publishing journey has been quite the ride and it is still progressing.
It all began as a single thought; more like a question. I found myself questioning my life. With everything I had been going through health wise, mentally and emotionally. The question posed was, “What am I still here for?” or “What is my purpose?” I am sure I am not the only one who has ever posed these questions on themselves, but I was truly lost. I felt like I had raised my daughter well enough to where she can pursue her life with some provided fundamental tools. Because she was all my life had been about, I no longer am able to be in the workforce, I have decided to not be in any intimate relationships, now what?
In the midst of these questions being raised, a single thought struck me; which led to more thoughts. After continuous prayer, I came to the conclusion that I must share. Sharing is caring they say and since I care about people, here I am.
We all have experiences that we go through in life, some preventable and some inevitable. It is our duty to recognize what God created us to become whatever it is he willed for us. Sometimes it takes a whole lot of life to get us to that point. If and when he grants you that day, it is a sense of clarity almost indescribable. I’d like to consider it enlightenment.
I began writing because there was so much built up emotion about various situations; it caused a creative flow that I couldn’t turn off. My head and my heart was soooo heavy. He did that. He made me this way for a reason and so I began to share.
When I was asked what inspired me. My answer was simple, LIFE is what inspired me. What my life has been about. What my life has not been about. How is it that I am still here while others I have lost are not. Other lives around me. Other lives I know nothing about. My point is there were so many things to draw from and it took him to show me.
My 1st book THE TRIUMPH IN ME, focuses on a young girl with a negative perception, she didn’t even realize that’s what it was til later during her adult years. Her life was filled with challenge after challenge after challenge as most others’ lives are, however, this particular young lady had her unique journey that God created just for her and so she shares her life experiences.
As the author I combined lots of devastating issues not easily spoken about because I hoped to make my debut by delivering a powerful message to inspire those who may need some inspiration in their lives. I must admit I wasn’t completely sure if I was on the right track by writing but it looks as if I was, I am on the right track because it brings me joy to write for others to absorb. Does any of that make sense?
Here are the steps I took on my continuing journey as a self published author:

Figure out why do you want to write. What do you want to write about? And start writing. Keep in mind that when you begin writing, it may or may not make any sense. Keep writing.
Begin to mention what it is that you find yourself writing about or how it feels to be writing period. Maybe a blog or a notebook or straight to your pc, your choice.
I started with this blog with you all. I’ve made some pretty good contact with people who were able to relate to what was pouring from my heart. It actually encouraged me to keep going. There were many times I felt way outta my league; then someone I never even met had something to say about something I had written, that touched them. It was those little things that pushed me right along.
As my writing process continued, I began researching. I googled all types of stuff relating to the writing process all the way to publishing options. I watched so many Youtube videos. Here are links to some of my favs: VIDEO #1    VIDEO #2     VIDEO #3     VIDEO #4

It’s amazing how many people go through the very same things you go through all at different points of life, different parts of the world, all background types, like its crazy what you find when you take the time to look.
Once I was able to organize all the thoughts I had written, it became more like a story. I added and deleted, added and deleted some more. Before I knew it, I had a short story of about 10,000 words, and it made sense. I had my daughter, a friend of hers and a friend of mine read it. They were like “Oh my gosh, you wrote a story?” I was like, “I don’t know, did I?” And so that my friends is how I ended up with a 1st draft of my book.
Now you guys who have been following me for a while know that I am physically challenged and so I must take intermissions. I will continue the details of my journey on another post. Stay tuned! Oh yeah, let me know your thoughts so far by commenting below. Talk to me guys, I wanna interact with you. I promise I am a nice person. 🙂

Just wanna be

Ever have that moment where you just wanna be something other than

Other than what is. Other than what isn’t. You just wanna be!

I often had moments where I knew I wanted to be something but couldn’t put my finger on what.

Even now in this very moment I know I just wanna be

I just wanna breathe and not feel like I’m drowning

I just wanna see and not be so blinded

I just wanna be loved and not feel so alone

I just wanna be free and not feel so held captive

I just wanna rise and not feel so weighed down

I just wanna live and not feel so dead

I JUST WANNA BE

anything? NO! Other than what is. Other than what isn’t.

I JUST WANNA BE

PaperBack Now Available!!!

Well guys here we are!  Again you all know how much I appreciate you visiting me here. Many many thanks to anyone who has or will be purchasing my book. The link is:

PURCHASE THE PAPERBACK!

Now that the process of book #1 is at its completion, I will be sharing in great detail how this process has been.  So stay tuned for that.

As a bonus I am inviting you to join in on the official launch via FaceBook Live!

Here is the link to the invite: LIVE LAUNCH EVENT!!!

I will be answering questions and explaining the back story of creating the characters and such.  It’s gonna be awesome but here is a secret Shhhhh!  I’m totally terrified of being on camera.  Soooooo come on by!

 

That’s all for now!  Share Share Share to social media…Thanks!!!!

Day 3 of Launch

Hello guys,

My emotions are running in over-drive!  I released my e-Book and now awaits the feedback.  My fingers are crossed that the people who are so gracious to support me and are intrigued by the cover/description will enjoy it. It is my hopes that they are inspired by Tharisse’s courage to go on despite her setbacks.

Realistically, I know that it may not be enjoyed by everyone but it doesn’t take away the fact that when it took so much to get to an accomplishing point in life, you pray for great results.

Anyhoot, back to the promoting I go. I just wanted to pop in and update you all on the progress of this enlightening  journey.

Thank you all for the continued following and please help me by sharing the title!

THE TRIUMPH IN ME     *Doesn’t it feel good to share with the intention to help another*

Come on over and follow me on FACEBOOK     THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

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Launch Day!

Hello fellow bloggers!

Today I am proud to present to you the KINDLE version of a very special project.

As many of you know, I am at battle with multiple disabling conditions but throughout it all I do my best to persevere as I encourage those who can relate.

Though this project has been difficult, it is my honor to share this accomplishment with you.

I ask for your support by purchasing this Ebook; however your willingness to share it by hitting a social media button below means just as much to me.

Join in on spreading the word of awareness!

***Paperback version will be available soon***

If you are interested in a paperback  PRE-ORDER option, please email me for further details, otherwise THANK YOU in advance for your purchase and ENJOY the read.

WELCOME TO THE TRIUMPH IN ME  

 

https://www.amazon.com/Triumph-Me-Kashinda-T-Marche-ebook/dp/B01GDSIJRS/