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Oh Happy Day

IMG_0573Happy Sunday! Thankful for another day. I was sitting here watching my morning church services and that message from Dr. Charles Stanley was on point and just what I needed. I had a revelation. No kidding.

I was baptized back in the later 90’s and I am just now having the full understanding that my life has been made of all the things destined for me. I understand that some of the things that has placed me in uncomfortable circumstances, I played part in due to my choices. Others were due to the choices God made for me that were planned by Him for a reason. Purpose. My heart has been strengthened. It has been broken and repaired so many times. It continues to wear scars. I can express this openly because I am sure of it. Believe me or not that I speak from my heart; the very heart that God uniquely placed his spirit in. I’m not saying that I am anything special than you but I am indeed special, unique and touched by God.

SO ARE YOU.

It is amazing; this process. I thought my life was dark and dull all this time, only to realize that it was not. Am I supposed to think that someone out in the world would ever need, use or want anything my heart may speak? I guess that depends on what it is that I’m saying. Fair enough. I want you to know I pray for peaceful hearts and wellness for us all.

You, if you’re reading this are indeed special to me. If you know your blessed, comment Amen. If you are searching for some new direction in life, comment Amen and hit me up, let’s talk about that. If neither applies, it’s okay to say hello anyways, rite?

Did I mention, I have been working on my second book? Yes! I said second. Now that is nothing less than a miracle.

I am a person just like you, living in a world that confuses the hell out of us. We can support, encourage and uplift one another and that should be okay.

I appreciate you reading about how my life has been transformed. I promised to keep you in the loop until I have life no more and I plan to keep it.

Until next time. Thanks for visiting and don’t forget to LIKE, SHARE or COMMENT.

Smiles and Blessings.

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Keeping the Faith

Hey guys! Here we are another day among the living. Despite all the challenges we may be facing today, it is still a day. A day to make a difference or to not. I am thankful for this day that allows me to connect with you. So, thank you for visiting. As most of you already know, I am chronically ill. Multiple health conditions that I have decided to LIVE with instead of dying from. I posted the pic below on Instagram. I made it this morning.

Keep your FAITH in He and it shall be. Hmm…

Well just imagine the day you could be living the life you always dreamed of. What would you be doing? Where would you be? Just think about that for a few seconds. Ok now this is gonna sound crazy, but bear with me. Through careful meditation, prayer and belief; I am living my dream. A dream I never would have thought existed. I am a mother who gets to write and use the power within my conversation to inspire individuals who may need it. That individual who knows what it is like living in a state of disbelief. A loss of hope. Newly diagnosed with a chronic illness. Just lost your job, the lifeline of your survival. Things that occur and totally knock the shit out of us. Yea, I’ve been there. My life sucked for the most of it until I changed my thought of it. I always thought my life sucked. I truly believed it. And so, it did. Today’s life doesn’t suck. I have learned to change my mindset. I mean things are so weird for me now. I am aware of things others don’t think two shits about. And in a way, we all have this ability. It was given to you by the Creator of all. The God who has helped me change my life. For real. I am here on a blog writing about my personal life journey to share with others who may need to be reminded of how life isn’t so bad. Let me be clear, I am not saying that I don’t experience sucky challenges. My every day is still a struggle; a struggle with lots of things like taking a shower. Like walking. Nah, my life doesn’t suck, no way Jose! Some of the events in my life may suck. My life is grand. I love my life. I bet yours is too. It takes getting to know yourself and a willingness to work towards seeing it as such. Completely your choice.

And I close this by adding, I’m not sure if I am already transitioning to the spiritual side and we all know what that means. Or, it could not. Keep stopping by, we shall see.

Thanks again and be sure to LIKE if you do, SHARE to your other social media, Comment if you want. I appreciate it all.

Smiles and Blessings to YOU!

Kashinda T. Marche

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What I thought I needed; wasn’t.

Moments of pity with myself existed on a regular, honestly because being broke til it ain’t a joke makes the struggle real. Well, it sucks. I never knew I would be okay. I didn’t know I was going to be okay. The reality of having an amazing daughter, a family who loves me, supports me and a warm heart; that was my start. A pretty good start that all don’t get to claim. Something that crept up on me.

It took a while to get to that realization. I spent years TRYING to make sure my daughter and I had all we needed and helping others when we could. A safe roof, food, clothes, gas & electric, the latest gadgets (thanks to an unending advancement in technology), etc. You get my drift, wait a minute, keyword TRYING. I fell short all the time. It was always this, that or the other we needed and I had no clue how I would get it.

I actually had it all; all along.

IMG_0573Here’s another life lesson learned, “Wake up!” This covers a broad spectrum. We all have within us what God intended us to have in order to fulfill his purpose for our lives and this is to spread the awareness of His presence and encourage others to draw closer to Him (your higher power).

Now, keeping in mind that we are nowhere near perfect people, but we are human and we all need love, support and clean WATER.

Sure, there are many things that we can fill a notebook with, if we were to list them out and it may differ as per individual; however, as a human being that list gets minimized to bout half page.

Still keeping in mind, the fact that we have the power of choice; it is up to me as to what’s important and not so important but I was forced to take a second look at my situation and wake up. For me, the term, “Wake up,” is my way of expressing how coming into an awakening of my self-image truly is. Self-love, self-awareness and self-respect has changed my life and it feels incredible. No, I haven’t been rescued from anything in the flesh; however, my spirit has been repaired and now it is what leads my life. I understand that I can only speak for myself and that’s the point. I am asking the question of, “What if we all woke up and smelled ourselves (not roses)?” Maybe if I can take the time to change/improve my scent to what I want it to be and not some artificial, cheap ass shit somebody else drenched me in, I could make a difference.

There will be those who are attracted to scents that I may not find appealing and that should be okay. There will be scents that I never smelled before, that I may happen to like (maybe even try for myself) and that should be okay. What if I smelled a way that was offensive to someone else’s liking? Should I just assume, because they choose to express their opinion of my scent, they are trying to hurt me or make an ass out of me or disrespect me? Maybe.

My point here is, if it weren’t for me “waking up”, I would not have been made aware of who I am and the blessing of time and power of choice to be who I want to be. Chosen to be (sanitized and deodorized).

A better me! Yes, its possible! And so can YOU if you choose to allow it. As it turns out, I needed help with that.

When He feels it’s your time, the lessons of life begin to re-play. I’ve learned that it’s okay to share, to help one another for the better good and that’s my choice to believe that. (my own perspective)

I will continue to work to be who I was meant to be and stepping into my own shoes because they fit well, I can try out other shoes too, if I choose to. I can provide feedback but, my own shoes are the ones I was born with and as I grow they will too. I get to wear them and I get to leave positive impressions in the earth as I journey in my purpose. They would be there if someone should need some direction along their journey and they get to leave their own impressions and so on and so forth.

The world goes around and around, getting better or worse, but the directions and impressions that are left for me I can choose to follow them or I can choose to create my own. At the end of the day, I want to be able to say that if you are inspired by my examples, then I am doing what I should be doing because I now know where I’m headed. I’m walking forward living my life, on my terms, guided by His light.

Mistakes are that of my own, some made shown. No judgment from me only by He. My mistakes have helped me in learning life’s lessons.

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Thank you!        Smiles and blessings!

Just sayin’

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Generational improvement exists.

We can all remember times when an older influence would say something to the effect of, when they were whatever age at the time they didn’t have this or that or they didn’t have whatever it was they were laying into you. They wish they would have had someone tell them this or that. Is it safe to say that we have all had those moments when we reflect on this or that and it’s those moments of learning that we get to pass along to the next generation? Igniting potential improvement in the world we live in.
By believing in the natural process of the circle of life, has allowed me to release the feelings of guilt, responsibility and lack of faith that held me captive. I did the best I could with what I had or thought was the best I could provide. I also made many mistakes that I wish I hadn’t but if I hold on to that negative weight thereof; I deprive myself the feelings of joy, happiness and gratefulness around me.
During my lowest moments, I now tend to think about the greatest moments and when I’m in the greatest moments, I’ll never forget the lowest moments. It’s a balance that is working out well for me. It is a difficult process but it’s getting just a little bit simpler. The harder the situation the more of a challenge it is to find your way through. It is an amazing feeling of breakthrough; an overcoming.

So why not support, encourage and root for our own people (meaning those closest to us.) Call it cooperation with the growth process. We all learn, interpret and express ourselves differently. It is one hope that the developmental process resulted in healthy minds. We will experience the learnings from the Almighty; what will you do with yours?

I choose to share but the next person may choose to remain private. That is ok. It should be ok when others make different choices. It leads to a communication process open to our adversities vs a toxic society where we lack support and cooperation with one another.

I just want to live safely, freely and rejoicefully! And that should be ok.

 

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How are you?

I came across this article and it had me thinking 💭 🤔 Yup, I seem to do a lot of that these days; shit, most days. Sometimes, I am not “fine.”

Here’s the infamous question that tv show host Wendy Williams has patented as, “How you doin?”     Check it out here>>>>    Fine

Thank you for visiting! Catch ya on the next Life Lesson post.

 

 

 

Relationships

Relationships – What happened to forever?

Surely, we know that there are many types of relationships to be had. Family, work, INTIMATE, etc., all which come with their own expectations and faux rules. Easy peasy, rite? Do good, get good. What if the shit isn’t that simple?

So, here’s my thing with relationships and how they lied when:

The many types of intimate relationships from which I have learned consisted of heterosexual, bi-sexual, lesbian, bosses, OPP (other people’s property), shared relationships (business propositions) and all the shit that went along with them. Not all at once! That would be insane. Let me be clear, the OPP relationship was a teen romance (nightmare) but, nonetheless, has taught me a lot, only worth the mention. I learned early in life not to fuck with anybody that already had somebody.

Now the shit that came along with all theses different types of relationships that I write about were issues of infidelity, damaged self-esteem, betrayal of trust, physical abuse (in some cases sexual abuse) lack of support and the list can go on forever. Sound familiar? Gosh, I hope not. Some of those issues were ignited by me, I admit I was the culprit. And naturally, some of those issues were of no fault of my own; that was my claim. However, I still was the culprit. You must understand that in any given situation approachable, I had to consider MY part in it.

Although these days I’ve become known as a writer, I will make this as brief as possible. (skipping most of the glory details unless you request one on one talk time with me) Questions are certainly welcomed. This is my perspective…

Coming from a space in life I once was, I loved hard and was always searching. Since my teen years, I always found myself in a relationship and had the notion of never being alone. Truth learned was that until I was completely okay with ME, I realized I was alone while in these relationships. I point this out partially because now at age 41-years old, I am currently on my own; alone with me, myself and I.

Until recently, I was unclear as to what a healthy relationship consisted of so long as I had a boo, still lonely as hell with them. I still managed to have loved each one of them, including the ones who hurt me to my core (all of them).

In my learnings of myself, no relationship was as fulfilling as the one with myself and if this were a sermon, my relationship with God is amazing. I have both now and my life is great but it took lots of time and effort to get to this point. It wouldn’t be fair to me if I pretended that any of this was easy. It has been a difficult process. Ironically, for me, all the issues I mentioned above had to be revisited in the buildings of my relationship with God and MYSELF.

In short, I have been beat up by someone I once loved, I have been belittled, disrespected, embarrassed by being date-raped by someone I once loved. I realize this may sound horrible but, at the time, amid these relationships, it wasn’t so much horrible as it was normal. The normal rocky road of relationships. I mean, yes, there were moments I felt horrible; however, seemingly recovered rather quickly. I forgave a lot without pause. Desperation took me there. The problem came to surface when I felt like I was giving my all, despite the issues, and didn’t feel as though I had all of my mate. It was like, I had to always be the one to take responsibility for any wrong doing I may have done, but, when it came to the one hurting me, they always found some justification for it. I accepted it. Well guess what Kash? If a person gave you all of them, what are they left with for themselves? I thought the idea of giving all or nothing or getting all or nothing made for a great relationship. Now maybe, if we were to start talking marriage and the exchanging of vows, the details could change a bit.

I wanna focus a little on FOREGIVENESS. I recently finished reading a book that took some time to get through as I am not an avid reader. But, this book, Supernatural Relationships ~ How to Get Closer to the People You Care For by Ed Gungor, teaches the Godly way of dealing with all kinds of relationships. According to Ed, “forgiveness protects our lives from Satan’s strategy by violently opposing the evil that tries to enter after an offense comes.” Basically, by forgiving, I released to the negativity I was holding on to. (toward them and myself) I had to learn after years of dwelling on all the situations that had wronged me and the same for all things for which I wronged, it was time to forgive. Forgive others even if they did not ask to be forgiven. I had to forgive MYSELF as God already done, even if I did not know it. Point is, I learned this as another lesson in life.

This book struck several chords because it was these concepts I came to understand by listening to what my spirit was already telling me for I now know it was coming from a place where God reveals his purpose chosen for MY life. I am not afraid to listen to it now! I believe in ME and that includes all the shit I’ve been through. It is true that I have made many mistakes (some bigger than others) and that I had to understand where the choices I made came from that led to such mistakes. The negative Nancy in me. It’s okay to make mistakes as life will prompt them but what’s not okay is not taking the time to get to know myself to prevent repeats, if possible.

Having low self-esteem, society decorated beliefs, faux rules to every situation and a non-belief of self-worth were all ingredients to a recipe distasteful to me and God didn’t appreciate it very much, lol. He showed me just how so. I’ve cheated and been cheated on, I’ve been hurt and I have hurt, I’ve loved and been loved. A cycle in my life that has taught me so many things but most importantly is how not understanding forgiveness and not willing to give the opportunity to move on can make life quite miserable. Something else Ed said that resonated with me is, “the responsibility to heal broken relationships is not to be left to the one who wrinkled the relationship, but responsibility belongs to the one who is aware of the conflict.” That would-be ME. My issue shouldn’t be with those who chose to leave me for whatever their reasoning, my issue is how I allowed it to negatively affect my growth. A growth I already lacked.

Life lied to me when love didn’t love me. I was fooled into believing that my happiness depended on who could create it for me in my life, especially if I did all I could to make them happy. Silly? Stupid? Naïve? Nope, love!

It’s okay for now because God loves me and I love me too.

Yup, I searched for love and hoped-for love to find me.

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Time!

Time makes things happen. When time is of its essence, the power then becomes yours. If time did not exist; neither did you.

Have you ever noticed that, if it weren’t for time spent doing something, whatever that is, it’s not until then that you know or not know.

I spent all my life running toward what I believed to be the good life. Success, riches, love…Really?

I spent all my life running away from darkness, pain, defeat. It wasn’t until my moments of stillness, that I became enriched with the knowing and that of the not knowing for which I was running.

Time revealed I was running. He granted me time. To gain an understanding of my existence, belonging to be mine. Time is the gift and that of what I’ve become. By which time is the reward. Including the effort, the running, all that was hard. The reward to myself, the reward to those around me, the reward reverted back to him, that of ME.

Thank you is all I can give; at least I thought. I thought wrong. How is that possible? Because without the understanding of time, it’s difficult to understand anything else.

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