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Oh Happy Day

IMG_0573Happy Sunday! Thankful for another day. I was sitting here watching my morning church services and that message from Dr. Charles Stanley was on point and just what I needed. I had a revelation. No kidding.

I was baptized back in the later 90’s and I am just now having the full understanding that my life has been made of all the things destined for me. I understand that some of the things that has placed me in uncomfortable circumstances, I played part in due to my choices. Others were due to the choices God made for me that were planned by Him for a reason. Purpose. My heart has been strengthened. It has been broken and repaired so many times. It continues to wear scars. I can express this openly because I am sure of it. Believe me or not that I speak from my heart; the very heart that God uniquely placed his spirit in. I’m not saying that I am anything special than you but I am indeed special, unique and touched by God.

SO ARE YOU.

It is amazing; this process. I thought my life was dark and dull all this time, only to realize that it was not. Am I supposed to think that someone out in the world would ever need, use or want anything my heart may speak? I guess that depends on what it is that I’m saying. Fair enough. I want you to know I pray for peaceful hearts and wellness for us all.

You, if you’re reading this are indeed special to me. If you know your blessed, comment Amen. If you are searching for some new direction in life, comment Amen and hit me up, let’s talk about that. If neither applies, it’s okay to say hello anyways, rite?

Did I mention, I have been working on my second book? Yes! I said second. Now that is nothing less than a miracle.

I am a person just like you, living in a world that confuses the hell out of us. We can support, encourage and uplift one another and that should be okay.

I appreciate you reading about how my life has been transformed. I promised to keep you in the loop until I have life no more and I plan to keep it.

Until next time. Thanks for visiting and don’t forget to LIKE, SHARE or COMMENT.

Smiles and Blessings.

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Keeping the Faith

Hey guys! Here we are another day among the living. Despite all the challenges we may be facing today, it is still a day. A day to make a difference or to not. I am thankful for this day that allows me to connect with you. So, thank you for visiting. As most of you already know, I am chronically ill. Multiple health conditions that I have decided to LIVE with instead of dying from. I posted the pic below on Instagram. I made it this morning.

Keep your FAITH in He and it shall be. Hmm…

Well just imagine the day you could be living the life you always dreamed of. What would you be doing? Where would you be? Just think about that for a few seconds. Ok now this is gonna sound crazy, but bear with me. Through careful meditation, prayer and belief; I am living my dream. A dream I never would have thought existed. I am a mother who gets to write and use the power within my conversation to inspire individuals who may need it. That individual who knows what it is like living in a state of disbelief. A loss of hope. Newly diagnosed with a chronic illness. Just lost your job, the lifeline of your survival. Things that occur and totally knock the shit out of us. Yea, I’ve been there. My life sucked for the most of it until I changed my thought of it. I always thought my life sucked. I truly believed it. And so, it did. Today’s life doesn’t suck. I have learned to change my mindset. I mean things are so weird for me now. I am aware of things others don’t think two shits about. And in a way, we all have this ability. It was given to you by the Creator of all. The God who has helped me change my life. For real. I am here on a blog writing about my personal life journey to share with others who may need to be reminded of how life isn’t so bad. Let me be clear, I am not saying that I don’t experience sucky challenges. My every day is still a struggle; a struggle with lots of things like taking a shower. Like walking. Nah, my life doesn’t suck, no way Jose! Some of the events in my life may suck. My life is grand. I love my life. I bet yours is too. It takes getting to know yourself and a willingness to work towards seeing it as such. Completely your choice.

And I close this by adding, I’m not sure if I am already transitioning to the spiritual side and we all know what that means. Or, it could not. Keep stopping by, we shall see.

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Smiles and Blessings to YOU!

Kashinda T. Marche

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Taking my ME back!

Ever wonder how we end up in these draining situations?

I sometimes ask myself, how did I end up in this situation that seems to drain the energy straight out of me. A situation that steals my hope, my will, my me. I have tried so hard in these situation types to take my hope back, my will, my me and until the Lord restored me I had other known behavior other than to give up, sit and sulk, living with no life. I blamed the devil and gave in. That wasn’t the me that I was created to be . The me I have been prepared to be. The me that wants to help others recognize their me. That person who can take back their hope, their will, their them. 😊

I have been strengthened mentally, physically and spiritually. Sharing my journey is my purpose. It is what allows me to experience hope, will and living a life. A life meant for me. The me I was created to be.

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Smiles and blessings to you all.

The Me I Didn’t Know

Hey guys here is a piece I feel would allow a better understanding of what it is I write about her on my blog. The very thing of my purpose. Life. I write about life. My life and lately I have been led to the sharing of the life lessons I have learned along the way, learning along the way and that of others before me and the lessons they have publicly shared.

With a respect for others and their beliefs, I understand that many won’t be in agreement. That’s what makes it so awesome, it’s ok.

Life lessons were intended to be the teachings of you. They also serve as beneficial particles of direction for others. Some lessons learned from others can be quite successful in the life of others and some may not. If we chose to follow we must understand the it comes down to choice. You can choose to use life lessons from others to implement into your own blueprint or you don’t have to. I chose to learn from others ways. My ancestors lived through the worst of times than now. As bad as it is. They lived through the first of times of what we know as modern civilization. The not so civil of times partially because it was the first of. Isn’t it safe to say that most first timers fail or suck and if you get to nail anything the first time around you are truly gifted because most of us don’t. I know I didn’t and so maybe they didn’t either. They being the ones who lived in this same world that I do today. Doing the same old thing making their difference in different ways. Commonality? We are all living, rite? We all look for love, we all want to eat, sleep and shit. We all enjoy the idea of making money.

My point here is I am choosing what way I choose to make my difference in a world not giving to me but rather in a world I am being given to. A world I am to be giving. This is the me God intended me to be. The me I didn’t know. I am a Storyteller.

A me who knows I’m dying. A me who knows this may or may not be a wise choice but also a me who knows the Glory of my God and He who gives me the strength is He whom I trust. Here I will share parts of my life with you until there is no more life to share.

 

The Prayer that introduces The Me I Didn’t Know

By the age fourteen, I didn’t know I had already began the purge of the true me. All I knew was that I hated my household, had the self-esteem of a scorned woman and that I had already developed the image of my life as it were to be. I didn’t know how I viewed the world and all things within including myself would depict my growth and in what ways. This eternal process is my life.

What provoked this share was the studying of my culture and the exhaustingly decline in my health. I had been worn so thin by the age forty, there was no choice but to surrender to God. He who has created the everything we were created to consider and He who has created all beings that are to be considered, I turn to you for I have no other place to go.

Heavenly Father, I thank you for the life You given me. I appreciate al the disguised blessings I was too ignorant to recognize. I am infinitely grateful for the time spent and the gift of my daughter. I enjoyed motherhood; so thank you for that. I come to you Dear Lord because as you already know, the time has come and I have arrived at the place. The place in my life where I need your help Dear Lord and I haven’t found anyone capable of the task. Not even I.

I now understand that my life and all its struggles challenges and obstacles, all  of its disappointments, devastations and un-resulting determinations. I now understand how blessed I was to have been a part of the lives of others, the life of a child carefully handled from the heart and that of the life I was able to witness with my own sight as witness. I thank you Father.

I am seeking the peace that’s missing in my life still holding me captive and that is the negative ways of my thinking. My perception is under attack and I have done all I could to oppose it and Father I have failed. I continue to foster thoughts of disgrace, fear and judgement. Guilt. Guilt of not allowing the true self of me to emerge. The me you created me to be in full bloom and blossom. To you Heavenly Father, I am seeking your will. In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen

This is a  me who has lived in pain for most of my life.  Living a life searching for pain relief.

What do I need to do to feel like this? The this I thought was that. The that I learned was this.

Making a choice in life is one of the most powerful tools given to us. Unfortunately, I was groomed to not recognize it. So, the choices I made in life were crafted by the mock design of the world around me, the people, my family, my household. Circumstances. All these things delivered to me in plain sight thru the surrendering of my life back to the one who created it and prayer for his help is who I am now. This is the me I didn’t know.

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Smiles and blessings!

Sick AND Tired

Are you sick AND tired of being sick of being tired? I know damn well I am!

Hey guys! It is my greatest hope that as you are journeying this thing called life, you are discovering just how you fit in and the role you play in it.

Lately I have been all about sharing the lessons I have been learning in MY life. Why? I suppose it is to help others.

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In what way? Well, that I’m not too sure of yet.

Is it about me at all?

Let’s just say there’s a little bit of self in all of us; actually there should be plenty of self in all of us.

My lesson learned is that it IS about me; however, not ALL about me. It teaches me that my actions are about managing myself; however, my actions may also affect others. How so? In many ways, how I speak with others or what I say and when I say it all matters.

This lesson in life teaches me and possibly others all about personal growth. I talk a lot about my daughter because she has been and continues to be a big part of my life. She got caught up in grown folks issues during her young stages, which was not cool, but we all learned some things. As a young adult, she now understands that being a big part of her mommy’s life doesn’t mean it’s all about her. I can only pray that my instabilities raising her doesn’t pose such negative effects causing her personal growth to be hindered.

 

Self-destruction is something that I battled for years. Once I finally understood what that actually meant, I was able to steer away from behaviors that worked against my personal improvement progress. Along my journey, it became clearer to me that I had a purpose; a purpose of existence. I hope to continue to learn and grow and learning from others is a necessary step in the process.. We can all learn from the complexities of this constantly changing society we live in. Why not talk about some shit, real shit, shit that matters to us. It should be okay for our voices to be heard.

I wonder sometimes about my role in my own life. These days I am a sick person. Seriously, I am a sick with a few different health challenges and I am tired. I am tired of being sick and sick of being tired but I keep going. God has truly been good to me, I do not deny that. It is a fact that although there are so many things working against me, there are many blessings attached. My voice has been growing. I have been growing at a pace that frightens me. I am learning so many things about myself and others.

May I share this with you? Recently, I came across a Facebook post that offers to help me with discovering my God given gifts (we all have at least one) and how to monetize them. Now, I am the first to express how money is something I lack in my life. It would be nice if that weren’t so but it is. I have seen so many posts similar to that one it has me wondering what it would be like if at this stage in my life if I were to learn to monetize my gift of creativity or how to monetize my gift of turning troubles into triumphs. I am curious to see where that goes. Unfortunately, my wants have taken a back seat to the many of things I am in need of as a person with disabilities.

Plainly put, I can talk, encourage and uplift. I could be wrong but isn’t that something I should be doing from the goodness of my heart. Speaking into people is something I have been good at for most of my life. It is because of all the shit I come across on social media that had me believing I may could make money by doing so. Not sure if I’m feeling that.

This world we live in has conditioned most of us regular folk that MONEY is the end all be all. What about that saying, Money is the root of all evil? Where did that come from? Part of me agrees with it and another part of me is confused by it. Am I the only one?

Anyhow, I say all of that to say this, according to my personal relationship with God, I am here to service him and by doing so I will be blessed with abundance. Could be an abundance of love; maybe support or joy. It is in this moment I think I have. Have you ever thought about your need for money and how do you gain financial freedom?

Here’s what I have had enough of: people claiming to show you simple steps to living out your dream, people making it seem like all is possible if you just follow their formula, people feeding us the bullshit that will lead us to money. Not to mention, it usually costs a fee just to access the info.

I am sick AND I’m tired of people’s bullshit when it comes to playing on others. I get it and at the same time I don’t. I get that it is possible because through Christ all things are. What I don’t get is how easy they make it seem. Let me tell y’all something you may already know; ain’t nothing easy about it. In fact, it is my own perspective to which I speak from and let me repeat, there ain’t nothing easy about it. Rather it be following in the path of Christ or chasing that dream, it takes discipline, dedication and lots of hard work. I’m trying and whew, it’s getting pretty tough.

All the visions, ideas and realizations from my God; what does it all mean? I don’t know. Am I giving up on my dream to help others who may need me? NOPE. I’m boldly stating that it ain’t nothing easy about any of it so don’t fall for it. The shit can really discourage you before he steps in to encourage you. The shit can weaken you before he steps in to strengthen you. All your efforts may go unnoticed before he reveals the bigger picture to you.

Nah, I won’t give up. I’m just admitting that I am sick AND tired of being sick of being tired. 

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Smiles & blessings to you all!

 

There’s a first for everything

Hey guys! I just wanted to pop in and let you guys know how I appreciate your visiting. I believe Sharing is caring! I will be posting another Life Lesson rather soon.

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This lesson has just dawned on me as I pursue my journey. It’s strange how the life I never thought I would have is the one I have. Ha, I’m still trying to digest it. I never thought I’d be needing a wheelchair. Chronically ill and it can get a bit lonely. I miss wearing socks. I would not have thought that bathing, cooking and cleaning my house could ever be a problem for me and yet it is. I didn’t think the last time I drove a car would be the last time. Living on a fixed income wouldn’t be so bad if it was enough to live on. It’s just not. But, I had to learn to take my challenges head on and not run from them. I couldn’t run anyways.

The fact that I am LIVING LIFE ON MY TERMS GUIDED BY HIS LIGHT is a miracle in my eyes. I didn’t think I would see the present days and now I actually look forward to each day ahead. I mean when you think about it, all our present moments are all we have to work with. Tomorrow isn’t guaranteed and yesterday has already gone.

I have decided to make a commitment to myself that I will not let fear keep me from my passion. I love helping people through rough patches. I love encouraging others to go for the gusto. Why not apply the very same practices toward myself? Am I the only one who does that? Wanna make sure everyone else is ok, to hell with myself. NO MORE, I say, no more!

Do you realize that we have the opportunity to give it our best shot even when we don’t think we have it in us to give?

Do you understand the power within you? I am a true witness to the FACT that the impossible can be made possible.

I plan to challenge myself to remain positive about situations that I have no clue of the outcome. Why do I stress over shit I don’t know how it will play out? The learning that it is so much to life yet it doesn’t have to be. Finding strength to overcome was like a scavenger hunt with no treasures. Struggling with so many things can get me down and keep me there if I allow it. I also plan to dedicate more time to meditating because I slacked off. Spending that quiet time with myself is critical because my mind moves fast all the time. Always has. Maybe now I’m excited to be alive. Now there’s a first. I remember wanting to die. Those moments were awful. Boy am I glad to have gotten through em; though I still hurt.

So, here’s the thing; love yourself, love your life and love others. You can treat each day as if it’s a new beginning because guess what? It is! The lesson here is do the best you can with you got, hope for the best with what you want but try not to disregard your needs.

You guys are so quiet. Let me know how you’re doing. Is today a good day? Not so good day? Has anyone had any amazing breakthroughs lately? I’d love to hear from you. If you like reading magazines, I recommend Holl & Lane ,such inspiring stories.

Til next post, smiles and blessings to you!

What I thought I needed; wasn’t.

Moments of pity with myself existed on a regular, honestly because being broke til it ain’t a joke makes the struggle real. Well, it sucks. I never knew I would be okay. I didn’t know I was going to be okay. The reality of having an amazing daughter, a family who loves me, supports me and a warm heart; that was my start. A pretty good start that all don’t get to claim. Something that crept up on me.

It took a while to get to that realization. I spent years TRYING to make sure my daughter and I had all we needed and helping others when we could. A safe roof, food, clothes, gas & electric, the latest gadgets (thanks to an unending advancement in technology), etc. You get my drift, wait a minute, keyword TRYING. I fell short all the time. It was always this, that or the other we needed and I had no clue how I would get it.

I actually had it all; all along.

IMG_0573Here’s another life lesson learned, “Wake up!” This covers a broad spectrum. We all have within us what God intended us to have in order to fulfill his purpose for our lives and this is to spread the awareness of His presence and encourage others to draw closer to Him (your higher power).

Now, keeping in mind that we are nowhere near perfect people, but we are human and we all need love, support and clean WATER.

Sure, there are many things that we can fill a notebook with, if we were to list them out and it may differ as per individual; however, as a human being that list gets minimized to bout half page.

Still keeping in mind, the fact that we have the power of choice; it is up to me as to what’s important and not so important but I was forced to take a second look at my situation and wake up. For me, the term, “Wake up,” is my way of expressing how coming into an awakening of my self-image truly is. Self-love, self-awareness and self-respect has changed my life and it feels incredible. No, I haven’t been rescued from anything in the flesh; however, my spirit has been repaired and now it is what leads my life. I understand that I can only speak for myself and that’s the point. I am asking the question of, “What if we all woke up and smelled ourselves (not roses)?” Maybe if I can take the time to change/improve my scent to what I want it to be and not some artificial, cheap ass shit somebody else drenched me in, I could make a difference.

There will be those who are attracted to scents that I may not find appealing and that should be okay. There will be scents that I never smelled before, that I may happen to like (maybe even try for myself) and that should be okay. What if I smelled a way that was offensive to someone else’s liking? Should I just assume, because they choose to express their opinion of my scent, they are trying to hurt me or make an ass out of me or disrespect me? Maybe.

My point here is, if it weren’t for me “waking up”, I would not have been made aware of who I am and the blessing of time and power of choice to be who I want to be. Chosen to be (sanitized and deodorized).

A better me! Yes, its possible! And so can YOU if you choose to allow it. As it turns out, I needed help with that.

When He feels it’s your time, the lessons of life begin to re-play. I’ve learned that it’s okay to share, to help one another for the better good and that’s my choice to believe that. (my own perspective)

I will continue to work to be who I was meant to be and stepping into my own shoes because they fit well, I can try out other shoes too, if I choose to. I can provide feedback but, my own shoes are the ones I was born with and as I grow they will too. I get to wear them and I get to leave positive impressions in the earth as I journey in my purpose. They would be there if someone should need some direction along their journey and they get to leave their own impressions and so on and so forth.

The world goes around and around, getting better or worse, but the directions and impressions that are left for me I can choose to follow them or I can choose to create my own. At the end of the day, I want to be able to say that if you are inspired by my examples, then I am doing what I should be doing because I now know where I’m headed. I’m walking forward living my life, on my terms, guided by His light.

Mistakes are that of my own, some made shown. No judgment from me only by He. My mistakes have helped me in learning life’s lessons.

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Just sayin’

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Generational improvement exists.

We can all remember times when an older influence would say something to the effect of, when they were whatever age at the time they didn’t have this or that or they didn’t have whatever it was they were laying into you. They wish they would have had someone tell them this or that. Is it safe to say that we have all had those moments when we reflect on this or that and it’s those moments of learning that we get to pass along to the next generation? Igniting potential improvement in the world we live in.
By believing in the natural process of the circle of life, has allowed me to release the feelings of guilt, responsibility and lack of faith that held me captive. I did the best I could with what I had or thought was the best I could provide. I also made many mistakes that I wish I hadn’t but if I hold on to that negative weight thereof; I deprive myself the feelings of joy, happiness and gratefulness around me.
During my lowest moments, I now tend to think about the greatest moments and when I’m in the greatest moments, I’ll never forget the lowest moments. It’s a balance that is working out well for me. It is a difficult process but it’s getting just a little bit simpler. The harder the situation the more of a challenge it is to find your way through. It is an amazing feeling of breakthrough; an overcoming.

So why not support, encourage and root for our own people (meaning those closest to us.) Call it cooperation with the growth process. We all learn, interpret and express ourselves differently. It is one hope that the developmental process resulted in healthy minds. We will experience the learnings from the Almighty; what will you do with yours?

I choose to share but the next person may choose to remain private. That is ok. It should be ok when others make different choices. It leads to a communication process open to our adversities vs a toxic society where we lack support and cooperation with one another.

I just want to live safely, freely and rejoicefully! And that should be ok.

 

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