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There’s a first for everything

Hey guys! I just wanted to pop in and let you guys know how I appreciate your visiting. I believe Sharing is caring! I will be posting another Life Lesson rather soon.

LIKE NOW. 😊

This lesson has just dawned on me as I pursue my journey. It’s strange how the life I never thought I would have is the one I have. Ha, I’m still trying to digest it. I never thought I’d be needing a wheelchair. Chronically ill and it can get a bit lonely. I miss wearing socks. I would not have thought that bathing, cooking and cleaning my house could ever be a problem for me and yet it is. I didn’t think the last time I drove a car would be the last time. Living on a fixed income wouldn’t be so bad if it was enough to live on. It’s just not. But, I had to learn to take my challenges head on and not run from them. I couldn’t run anyways.

The fact that I am LIVING LIFE ON MY TERMS GUIDED BY HIS LIGHT is a miracle in my eyes. I didn’t think I would see the present days and now I actually look forward to each day ahead. I mean when you think about it, all our present moments are all we have to work with. Tomorrow isn’t guaranteed and yesterday has already gone.

I have decided to make a commitment to myself that I will not let fear keep me from my passion. I love helping people through rough patches. I love encouraging others to go for the gusto. Why not apply the very same practices toward myself? Am I the only one who does that? Wanna make sure everyone else is ok, to hell with myself. NO MORE, I say, no more!

Do you realize that we have the opportunity to give it our best shot even when we don’t think we have it in us to give?

Do you understand the power within you? I am a true witness to the FACT that the impossible can be made possible.

I plan to challenge myself to remain positive about situations that I have no clue of the outcome. Why do I stress over shit I don’t know how it will play out? The learning that it is so much to life yet it doesn’t have to be. Finding strength to overcome was like a scavenger hunt with no treasures. Struggling with so many things can get me down and keep me there if I allow it. I also plan to dedicate more time to meditating because I slacked off. Spending that quiet time with myself is critical because my mind moves fast all the time. Always has. Maybe now I’m excited to be alive. Now there’s a first. I remember wanting to die. Those moments were awful. Boy am I glad to have gotten through em; though I still hurt.

So, here’s the thing; love yourself, love your life and love others. You can treat each day as if it’s a new beginning because guess what? It is! The lesson here is do the best you can with you got, hope for the best with what you want but try not to disregard your needs.

You guys are so quiet. Let me know how you’re doing. Is today a good day? Not so good day? Has anyone had any amazing breakthroughs lately? I’d love to hear from you. If you like reading magazines, I recommend Holl & Lane ,such inspiring stories.

Til next post, smiles and blessings to you!

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Still awake at 3am

Hey guys, I know it’s been a while but here I am. How’s everyone doing?

It’s 3am and I am awake. (Insomnia sucks!)

Staring at the ceiling wondering what my life would be like without the sicknesses, without pain, without the gloom of loneliness. So I decided to write.

Ever wonder what your life would like if you didn’t have that dark cloud hovering over you?

Well let me see, although it’s hard to imagine my life any different; I would like to think it would free. I would be free. Free to dream, free to explore, free to love and certainly  free to work. I felt like I was held captive by pain.

When you are challenged to live in constant pain, your response is to try and fight back. What does that little voice inside you say? Does it try and convince you that you can handle it? Does it often remind you that you’re human and it’s ok to feel and that it will pass soon?

But what if it doesn’t. You must find a way to alleviate it, rite? You’ve tried all sorts of remedies. Time to get your mind in the game and pray your physical being falls in line.

I am learning to refocus my energy away from the things/thoughts that bring me negative feelings. I want to share my experience with those that are at the end of their ropes. I have created a MeetUp group for people living with chronic pain. I chose to dedicate it to persons with symptoms of nerve damage but all pain relief seekers are welcomed. We will share ideas and discover effective ways of coping.

Providing helpful support, encouraging others and allowing my journey to set an example of hope brings me great joy. It’s what I have found to be a positive shift in energy.

There’s no doubt we all will have bad days but you deserve some good ones too.

Join in on a Skype meeting usually held on Saturdays at 5pm Est and you may discover a positive distraction that works well for you. Maybe you’d like to share something that can be helpful to another. Either way, we’d love to have you.

It’s free to join the group. Sign up here: MeetUp .

Another Day Still Fighting

Hey guys!  Today is another one of those days on the battlefield, the battlefield of LIFE.

It’s no secret that I have decided to share the intimate details of my journey. I have admitted to struggling with the stability of my mental health as well as the decline in my physical abilities due to Peripheral Neuropathy otherwise known as nerve damage.

As I have been trying to take positive approaches towards bettering my life and gaining a confidence in the changes taking place, it has been extremely difficult fighting against the evils of giving up. I wish there were an easy way to transform oneself but the reality is there isn’t. My reality may be familiar or similar to many others and I try to connect with people to communicate helpful conversation. A conversation of hope but it doesn’t seem to be working.

So I shall continue to write. I will write what my heart chooses to say.

Tonight I am hurting. I am frustrated by the fact that my neuropathy is progressing faster than my mental can process it. I try to live by my message of optimism and never to give up but I am human. I am weakening. I ask God for the strength and endurance to get through my storms. I will write in hopes of relief. My words may or may not make much sense at times. The shitty thing about it all is that life at times doesn’t make much sense. Is there anyone out there who feel the same? Is there anyone out there who falls into the pit of darkness? I find myself begging for just a flicker of light in my darkness. I know it gets better but I just wish my better moments were more consistent. Is it okay to just sit in sorrow sometimes? The fight gets exhausting. People tell me all the time to keep fighting but sometimes I just rather not. I guess this is normal. What does that even mean? Normal? There is nothing normal about hating yourself one minute and trying to not the next. Oh yea, could that be the BiPolar in me? Maybe.

My next post will most likely be different than this one. Or not!

If you feel like saying something, please do. You MATTER!