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Hi!   I appreciate your visit. Thank you for your time and interest.  I found this Article  that gives good insight as to a step of my existing process. I do feel I have been led to my purpose. I’ve discovered this over the course of the past 4 years and I base this on the struggles in my life and the only sense to make of it. HELPING! I see how much help/support I needed throughout and wasn’t aware that it was there all along. So many mistakes (maybe) but more so lessons learned. Lessons I tried to explain to my daughter in hopes to aid her in decisions and choices she may face in her life.  I have found that my purpose in life is to be an example for others; to help others who may lack hope, faith or motivation,  maybe some guidance/mentorship.

My name is Kashinda and I am a Life Lesson.

I am researching and learning how to effectively communicate to others because I have lots to say about this thing called “life.” A life that can be fulfilling and enriched with love and support if you allow it.

Please as always if you find any of my posts to be beneficial or interesting, share to your social media. You never know what messages are shared to others who may need it at that very moment.

Once again, thank you for visiting.

My Life…My Terms…Guided By His Light ~ KTM

Holding On!

Hey guys, today is one of those days. It is a day but not too good as far as my mood goes. I had a pretty decent day yesterday. I had my very 1st blog radio https://percolate.blogtalkradio.com/OffsitePlayer?hostId=980495&episodeId=9523211” target=”_blank”>Interview. It was awesome although I was nervous as hell. Tomorrow, Saturday will be my 2nd book signing event and sure I’m excited about that but today, I don’t know it’s just not a good day.  So I just wanna share some random writing if you don’t mind.

My hands are in pain. My fingertips are numbing. It could be the neuropathy but oh well shit hurts like hell. I try to think positive thoughts but of course it’s still a struggle. Working so hard to be working so hard is literally killing me. Why? could it be because the power that be insist? Maybe. Did I mention my hands are in pain. Could it be that the rope aka life has me dangling mid air. I weigh in at about 180lbs. Imagine holding that rope so tight that you can no longer feel it. But then again it could be the neuropathy. I ask myself all the time, “Do you know what you’re doing?” My answer is always the same, “No!”  I do know that I work so hard to work so hard. Even though the magnetic force has left my ten fingers, I mustn’t let go. Why? could it be because the powers that be insist? Maybe.

Don’t get me wrong, this is not a complaint. Oh no that wouldn’t be wise of me to do that. I am in no position to complain. I have far too many things to be grateful for, so many things to be thankful for. Why? could it be because the powers that be insist? Maybe.

Did I mention my hands are in pain. They are confused. Am I still mid air or have I slipped toward the lower? I ask myself all the time, “Do you know what you’re doing?” My answer remains the same. “No!” I do know I’m fighting. I’m fighting to hold on. Even though my hands are in pain. Even though I could be slipping. I’m still holding on. Why? It is because the powers that be insist.

 

Just wanna be

Ever have that moment where you just wanna be something other than

Other than what is. Other than what isn’t. You just wanna be!

I often had moments where I knew I wanted to be something but couldn’t put my finger on what.

Even now in this very moment I know I just wanna be

I just wanna breathe and not feel like I’m drowning

I just wanna see and not be so blinded

I just wanna be loved and not feel so alone

I just wanna be free and not feel so held captive

I just wanna rise and not feel so weighed down

I just wanna live and not feel so dead

I JUST WANNA BE

anything? NO! Other than what is. Other than what isn’t.

I JUST WANNA BE

PaperBack Now Available!!!

Well guys here we are!  Again you all know how much I appreciate you visiting me here. Many many thanks to anyone who has or will be purchasing my book. The link is:

PURCHASE THE PAPERBACK!

Now that the process of book #1 is at its completion, I will be sharing in great detail how this process has been.  So stay tuned for that.

As a bonus I am inviting you to join in on the official launch via FaceBook Live!

Here is the link to the invite: LIVE LAUNCH EVENT!!!

I will be answering questions and explaining the back story of creating the characters and such.  It’s gonna be awesome but here is a secret Shhhhh!  I’m totally terrified of being on camera.  Soooooo come on by!

 

That’s all for now!  Share Share Share to social media…Thanks!!!!

Meet Isabella

Meet Isabella:

Isabella is visually impaired

When she looks in the mirror

She sees nothing

People:  “You’re so beautiful; your skin so milky smooth. Just the right hint of honey.

Your complexion, the perfect shade, the perfect tone, the perfect hue.

Your hair is healthy, voluminous, the perfect wave pattern.

Every feature of your face perfectly sculpted.”

Isabella you also have a heart of gold, you’re just beautiful.”

When Isabella was asked, “What’s the one thing you would wish for if wishes came true?”

Isabella:  “I wish to look in the mirror and see the beauty of me; the beauty you see of me.

I see beautiful people around me all the time. I want to see my beauty.”

Isabella is not blind. She can very well see.

Why do you think Isabella doesn’t see her own beauty if people tell her all the time how beautiful she is?

***This is a fictional character. Not intended to reflect anyone who so happen name is Isabella.***

Short Story by Kashinda T. Marche        All rights reserved.

 

Just one of those days

Hello everyone,

I decided to pop in and share with you all today just how difficult this whole process of getting my 1st book ready for release has been.

Today is just one of those days when I momentarily questioned what in the hell do I think I’m doing?  I know I must practice what I preach by pushing through the rough patches and believing that things will get better if you strive toward it but damn I would never tell anyone or lead you to believe that it is easy.  I face challenges every single day of my life whether it be showering, preparing myself something to eat or hell just pulling myself up outta bed.  I am learning to adapt. Good days and not so good days are expected. No prob!

Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining but damn – damn – damn.  I truly believed that the story I am sharing or trying to share was placed within me for this very reason.  It may very well be my purpose in life to open up and share what life is like when faced with challenges and how you can overcome them by broadening your perception in certain areas, praying on a regular and basically believing in yourself that you can do and be better.  I am trying really hard to hold on to my faith and hope but yeah today is just one of those days.

Trying to independently publish my 1st book with no money to invest in it is beyond difficult. It is seemingly impossible. I know I know nothing is impossible, all things are possible through Christ for he who strengthens me.  Geesh that’s the scripture I chose to include in my book. lol

People, I am running into small details that no matter how I look at it or where I look for help, it cost. So what am I to do? All was going well til now. I am at the point in the process that I absolutely need a professional final edit before going to print and the rates are crazy high. I completely understand that peoples’ skills are valuable and therefore must be charged accordingly and so I will never ask anyone to just give me a freebie of their service.  Sigh! I will continue to pray on it as I stare at my completed manuscript hoping it miraculously polishes itself into an outstanding piece of work that you all can enjoy as a great read but to also get inspired to pull the bullshit life that maybe holding you down by the horns and get on board with transforming into a pleasurable life living being.

Well that’s all for now, stay tuned for further updates on The Triumph In Me!

A journey to success! Success=Living

Thank you for visiting!

 

 

Making Progress!

Sooooooooo who’s ready 4 it?????  The Triumph In Me – A Story of Truth  (Paperback)

Will be available sooner than expected.  I have been blessed enough to be granted the opportunity to share my creative writing with the world.  Some of you are a bit familiar with my journey and I am so appreciative.  It can never be told to me that I have not given this my all. I have put my best efforts in to create a story that is both entertaining and empowering and it is my hopes that it is received in such manner.  Prayers to you all!

By the way…what do y’all think of the new cover???  Comment below and please share to social media…Thanks a bunch and remember let’s keep on keepin on!

 

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Guess Who?

My shadow is my best friend
It knows all my secrets – all my fears – all my dreams – what’s truly in my heart
I never had to speak a word…it just knows
I cannot deny my shadow even if I tried
My shadow never leaves me…even when I can’t see it I know its always there
I wonder if it’s there on purpose
My shadow reminds me of another – Can you guess who?
******Leave your answers in the comment section below******

Let’s Connect!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE

Join me as I open my blog up for chat…If you have blogs that have become a therapeutic way to release your inner thoughts, feelings and personal opinions, lets connect!

I will be posting daily questions in hopes to opening a discussion about how we are dealing with our daily struggles, regardless of what they may be.  Feel free to comment, share the posts or even add questions of your own that you would like to open up for discussion.

**IN NO WAY IS THIS INTENDED TO SUBSTITUTE MEDICAL CARE OR TREATMENT**

What is the first thing you do upon waking in efforts to get through your day?

I pray for strength and express my thanks/gratitude for the opportunity to make today better than yesterday.  Sometimes it works out that way and sometimes it doesn’t. I have noticed that some of my days aren’t better than my yesterdays however I continuously fight for the better ones.